New Moon Spread

This spread was done based on a spread by Ellen Lorenzi-Prince’s spread for Chantico the Goddess of the month.  Chantico is the goddess of the heart and the defender of the home.  She is a sun goddess and represents the nine of wands.

What is the Source of Your Inner Fire?
The source of my fire is the Red Dakini (Eight of Fire).  Interestingly enough the eight of wands was the card that I chose for today as it said fireworks to me and moving fast.  The Red Dakini’s message is that it is okay to follow impossible dreams and believe in things that on the surface would not seem to be possible.  The Red Dakini is all about change and moving from one level to another.  What is interesting is that as I pursue my degree and open myself up to the possibilities of what lays beyond, I find myself so much more confident and feeling in control of my life.  I feel that I am moving with more grace and as a woman who knows her worth.  That is an amazing change that has come over me.  I also find myself knowing with deep certainty that my perfect love will come to me.

How do you use this Fire?
Tsonokwa (six of earth) tells me to give of myself and my wealth and to give freely.  The knowledge
and skills I am gaining are to be shared with others and not just stockpiled.  Tsonokwa also tells me to be courageous as I move forward.  This is so interesting because my increased confidence is also helping me to move forward with courage.  In the past, I would have said no to going back to school because of the cost or because I could see no practical way to use my degree, but my guides are telling me that I am on the right path.  I still have no idea where it will lead me, but I know I am being cared for and led and that saying yes is the right thing to do.  I’m also receiving the message that I need to also take care of myself.  I will be taken care of, but part of being taken care of is knowing what I need to take care of myself.

What protection does your fire need?
Dhomanavati (Hag of Air) tells me that my fire needs protection from illusion and from those who would put me down and not respect me.  She tells me to know I am enough all by myself and that I do not need approval from society.  I do not need someone else in my life as I am capable of taking care of myself.  However, she also tells me that it is not wrong to want someone in my life for companionship and fun.  I need to be cautious of assuming that I need someone else to take care of me.  I need to let go of what society tells me and listen to my own heart.  I also need to let go of those things that no longer serve me.



What Fuel does your fire need?
Erinye (Ten of Air) tells me that the time to be fueled by righteous indignation is past and that it is time to surrender and be led by the fates.  I love this as I am finally starting to feel that I am finding my balance between being proactive and taking control of my life and letting the fates guide me.  The lesson they gave me in Sedona eight years ago is one of the most amazing lessons I’ve ever been given.  Living Cairn by Cairn reminds me to look for the next right action and when I’ve taken that step to look for the next one.  It is an interesting way to live, but it does help stop me from excessively planning and being so caught up in planning my next move that I don’t enjoy the present moment.  I’m not perfect yet, but I am definitely moving in the right direction.

What is being transformed within you?
Oh Circe (Three of Fire), you have such wisdom for me for you are all about transformation.  You are reminding me of the importance of my creativity and expressing it in all forms and in all aspects of my life.  My creativity is about the flowers I put on the table as well as the creative words I write.  You’re also reminding me to dress for power and to integrate all aspects of my life.  That’s interesting for me as I deliberately chose to put my little love altar in my workspace instead of my bedroom or creating a separate altar because I wanted the reminder that love needs to be part of my entire life and not segregated into a specific area.  It made sense to put it on my work altar as that is where I spend the most time when I’m home and that is where I would be most likely to see it on a regular basis.

Overall, this was a pretty interesting reading as it summed up the fact that I am becoming an independent woman who has the confidence and the wherewithal to live life on my own terms.

Eight of Fire

Eight of Fire
Dark Goddess Tarot

First Impressions: My first impressions are of a beautiful red fire goddess falling into a small village.  There is a sense of haste and purpose.

Book:  Let the rush lead to a new awakening, Inviting change in, a great energetic shift, seducing people to follow impossible dreams.

Guidance:  Get out of the way and go for the ride, invite the Goddess in, follow your desire

Journaling:

I’m not sure what to do with this energy.  A feel there is a change a’brewing, but I don’t truly know what I want in my life.  I don’t know.  Part of me just wants peace in my life.  I don’t want to change the world or just buy things.  I just want peace.  I want to wake up and look into my soul and clean away the debris that has accumulated there.  I want to live a simple life, but how do I get there?  How do I live a contemplative life while still being in the world.

December 28, 2017

This week has been a really good experience for me in letting go and choosing to live in peace.  I’m not thrilled that we have to have daily meetings to resolve defects, but I’ve realized that I have  choice:  I can choose to let the 30 minute daily meeting ruin my entire day or I can choose to say, this is 30 minutes that I need to spend doing this, but then I’m done.  It really is a choice and I’ve been doing a good job of choosing to do the meeting and let go.  That is so much progress for me because before I would have spent the entire day in a snit because I had to have this one 30 minute meeting.

I’m also doing a good job of choosing to let go of not being able to spend as much time cleaning the house as I want to.  It’s really hard to clean around people and to a certain extent that annoys me, but I can choose to get all angry and pissy about them sitting there or I can just choose to relax and do something else.  It is my choice.