Category: three

Daily Draw; Three of Swords

First impressions:  Heartbreak

Book:  Heartbreak, very dramatically and tragically expressed, ego is centered on emotional distress

Guidance:  Remove the focus from your emotions, proper perspective allows more clarity, empress can help with healing

Journaling

I love the reading on this card as it is a reminder to put things into perspective.  I tend to blow things out of perspective and make it seem as if I am the only person in the world to be hurt and that is not true.  Every person on the planet goes through heartbreak and pain.  It is not the tragedy we face that defines us as much as it is our reaction to it.  We can choose to curl up in a ball and wither away or we can choose to become hard.  Or we can choose to heal and grow.  Just like I love old furniture for its scars and patina, I need to embrace my own scars and imperfections.  I’ve led an interesting and varied life and I need to embrace that. 

I’m struggling right now as to how I can be there for my daughter as she is alternating between defiant and sad.  I guess I just have to let go and be there for her.  She needs a support system and not a jailer.

November 20, 2017

Interesting read as I am working on accepting myself and who I am in my own life.  I am not berating myself for clothing sizes, but choosing to love who I am.

October 27, 2018

Over the past year, I really have realized that loving myself and valuing my body is the key to losing weight.  I am actually motivated to take care of myself and to stop drinking coke.  It is really hard, but I know that I am starting to feel better since I’m no longer sucking down four cokes a day.  The pounds have not really started coming off yet, but I do know that I feel a lot more comfortable in my own skin.

Three of Fire

Three of Fire
Dark Goddess Tarot

First Impressions:  This card always seems to me as if the three little creatures are waiting for her to come down from the rock.  Circe seems to be stirring up some magic in her pot.  Overall, this card gives off a vibe of waiting.

Book:  Ideas have a life of their own, Knowing lore of all places, Friend of the witches, creative ability is high.

Guidance:  Make the most of your creativity, express it, embrace change, mix up things in your life, change up your house

Journaling

Interesting that I pulled this card as I am embracing change and changing my personal space.  I’m also cleaning out and getting rid of things that no longer serve me.  This is a time of transformation and I feel the energy of change flowing. 

Despite all the nastiness in the government, I feel good changes are afoot and it is time to embrace my creative side.

December 18, 2017

I love the thought that ideas have a life of their own and that we can manifest ourselves.

December 27, 2017

One of the things I’ve realized with this round of cleansing and getting rid of is that I don’t have to purge everything at once.  I can take my time and genuinely evaluate what serves me before I just get rid of it all.  I’ve decided I’m going to take the next year to work through the books on my bookshelf in the wood room and I’m going to either keep them permanently, keep them as I haven’t read them yet, or get rid of them.  I don’t have to make a decision today.  In the past, I always thought that if I made a decision, I had to implement it right away, but I’ve realized that’s not true.  I can take time to evaluate and gently get rid of things instead of rushing to get rid of them.  Doing things this way brings me peace instead of frustration

Three of Cups

Three of Cups
Robin Wood

First Impressions:  Although the women are supposed to be enjoying themselves, they are not looking at each other, it is as if they are in their own little worlds.  The three of cups is traditionally about friendship.

Book: Joyful, playful, joining in thriving friendships, emotional generosity

Guidance:  Be sociable, make friends

Journaling:

Not a card that I’m truly thrilled about drawing.  I know I need to get out and make friends, but I’m stuck in a rut. 

Dearest Ones,

Please guide me to the activities that are right for me.  Guide me to places where I can thrive and make real friends.  And please help me to open up and to be open to people.

Blessed Be,
Raine

January 1, 2018

It’s been exactly a year since I wrote that and I still don’t have any friends in Cleveland, but I have gotten to know myself better and I have actually tried some activities.  I did go to the UU church for six weeks, but that really wasn’t for me as I didn’t feel welcome there.  But that’s okay and I’ve accepted that.  Right now, I’m going to be open to doing new things and if something pops up, that’s great, if not that’s okay too as I’ve always been good at taking care of myself and I’m happy being by myself.

Daily Draw: Three of Cups

First Impressions:  Friendship and fellowship

Book:  Celebration, jubilee, merriment, people who are genuine and truly supportive

Guidance:  Rejoice and celebrate

Journaling

This card is hard for me as I really don’t have a lot of friendships to revel in.  I’m a little shy and I’m afraid of getting close to people.  I sometimes feel as if people use me and that doesn’t feel very nice.  I’m feeling that way around S.  a lot.  It feels as if when I need a reading or am buying dinner, eh has time for me, but that when I just need to talk he doesn’t.  I need to sit with this a little while, but it doesn’t feel good.

May 26, 2018

I still don’t have a lot of friends, but I am feeling more comfortable in my own skin and I’m feeling more comfortable alone.  I’m also realizing that it is better to be alone than to have people in your life who use you.  I think where I’m at right now is that I just need to accept that people come into our lives for a reason and sometimes that reason is to teach a lesson about who to trust and who not to trust.  S. was someone who I let in and I think that was okay as he helped me and listened when I really needed it.  My life has changed and I no longer fit into his life.  And that’s okay.  I can just let go and know that I learned from him and now it is time to move on.

Three of Cups

Three of Cups
Hanson-Roberts

First Impressions:  There are apples and berries growing on the trees.  The three girls are close together as if they are sharing secrets.  There is a tassel or a broom on the girl on the right.  This card makes me think of friendship, fulfillment, and happiness.

Book:  Celebration, jubilation, merriment, sincere allies who wish the seeker well, playful affection.

Guidance:  Draw on the energy of the earth.  Take time to enjoy friendships.

Journaling:

Ironic card to pull when I am feeling friendless and mired in loneliness.  It just hurts to think about people having friends  when I’m mired in this stupid half life where it feels my life has no joy and no meaning.  I don’t even know how to get where I want to be.  I do know that I have to set better boundaries to get out of Chicago.

December 23, 2017

It’s over a year later and I still don’t have friends, but I’m realizing I crave my alone time and I’m not really ready to give that up to have friends.  I tried by joining the church, but that just all seems so fake and like the people are not very nice.  I was so hurt when I wasn’t able to make the first session and I said that I couldn’t go because my daughter had a minor car accident and no one took the time to send me a message and say I’m sorry.  I thought that was so cold and incredibly bitchy.  And now they’re calling and saying, “we don’t think you’re interested, etc., etc.”  Of course they’re right because why would I want to hang out with people who have no compassion?

Three of Fire

Three of Fire
Gaian Tarot

First Impressions:  I love this card as it is so full of expression and passion.  This card is about passion, controlling the flames, happiness, self control, and dancing.    When I look at this card, I think about being joyous, it is about being comfortable in my own skin.  I am a woman who knows what she wants.

Book:  On fire with the joy of creativity, sexuality, and self empowerment.  Life is flowing and nothing can hold you back.  Be proud of all you are and all that you have accomplished.

Journaling:

What a wonderful card to draw for Beltane, the first fire festival.  I do feel comfortable in my own skin.  I’m having a wonderful day being home and as if life is flowing.

I express my joy and passion openly.

January 2, 2018

I love this card!  It is one of my all time favorite tarot cards as she has such beauty and exuberance.  This card makes me think about picking myself up and doing what needs to be done as I face life head on.