Category: The Tower

Daily Draw: The Tower

First Impressions:  Dramatic change, the world tumbling down

Book:  All around is destruction, ignorance and stupidity produce man’s greatest ills, change, conflict

Guidance:  If it has to be destroyed, be rid of it, don’t be selfish, listen to wisdom and reason, can mean a change

Journaling

I always have mixed feelings about the tower card.  It means change of the sudden and dramatic type.  I’m not ready to have my life shaken up, but then I guess no one is ever ready for that kind of shakeup.  I do know that I’m not happy right now and I’m feeling lonely and at loose ends.  I’m not positive how to resolve that, but maybe being in California for two weeks will be good for me.  I’m sad about giving up my poetry reading, but I also didn’t want to do the trip home with the horrendous commute.  I guess I just need to be open to what is and open my heart.

December 29, 2018

There are so many amazing things about pulling tarot cards on a consistent basis and about going back and actually reading through and reflecting on what I’ve written.  For me, it is amazing to see that my highs and lows are evening out.  As I do my tarot on a regular basis, I am starting to realize that there are always highs and lows and that the day starting out poorly does not mean that it will end poorly.  I have way more control about how the day ends than I think I do.  I have been working really hard to step back and put my life into perspective instead of just letting myself freak out over everything.  Taking the time to do that really and truly helps.

Shadow Work — Day 23

At this point, what am I refusing to accept about my shadow and my relationships?

Dancer Six tells me that I cannot be the center of the universe at all times.  Other people have their own things going on and I can’t expect everyone to constantly drop everything to take care of my emotional needs.  If everything is constantly drama, than no one will be there for me when i really need people to support me.  This card also  tells me that I need to let go of the crappy messages that I learned in my childhood.  Those messages are not supporting me and are not helping me to grow as a person.

The Tower tells me that I am refusing to accept that people will like me for who I am without the mask on.  I love this version of the Tower because it shows a mask being blown away which tells me it is about the fakeness and the illusions being blown away.  I always feel like I have to be someone else in order for people to like me.  I have to do something for them, I have to buy them something, etc.  This card is telling me that I don’t need any of that.  I just need to be myself, but I can’t accept that.

Temperance is telling me once again that I need to open my heart.  The heart on the fairy figure is clearly open and the man below is also opening himself up.  Opening my heart is life and love will bring me all that I desire in relationships, but I refuse to accept this.  I continue to look for ways where I can have an amazing relationship without opening my heart, but Temperance is telling me that will not happen.