Category: Temperance

Daily Draw Temperance

First Impressions:  Balance, creating something magical

Book:  Eternal rainbow linking heaven and earth, mastery over water and earth, uniting of conscious and subconscious, the path to enlightenment, adaption,

Guidance:  By cooperating with other people, you can achieve great things, work on improving yourself

Journaling

This card is about balancing and adapting.  I have not done such a good job of that this week.  I’ve let myself be pushed into things that are not in my best interests, like giving up my poetry night.  I’ve also not had the time to myself I’ve needed.  Cam has chosen to go home instead of go to class and that’s meant I haven’t had the peace and solitude that I crave.  Maybe the message here is that I need less solitude and ore time with people. 

What I really need to do is to find and embrace my tribe.  I’m not there yet and I don’t know how to get there.  Making friends is really hard for me.  I don’t think I’m alone in that as suburbia makes it hard and working remote doesn’t help.

December 29, 2018

One of the things that I have realized lately is that I do have my tribe. They might not be close, but they do care about me and they are there to listen to me and to help me.  Maybe that is what is right for me.  I do know that I have been opening my heart and asking the universe to help me find my tribe.  I just need to have confidence that when it is right, it will show up and it will be great.

Shadow Work — Day 23

At this point, what am I refusing to accept about my shadow and my relationships?

Dancer Six tells me that I cannot be the center of the universe at all times.  Other people have their own things going on and I can’t expect everyone to constantly drop everything to take care of my emotional needs.  If everything is constantly drama, than no one will be there for me when i really need people to support me.  This card also  tells me that I need to let go of the crappy messages that I learned in my childhood.  Those messages are not supporting me and are not helping me to grow as a person.

The Tower tells me that I am refusing to accept that people will like me for who I am without the mask on.  I love this version of the Tower because it shows a mask being blown away which tells me it is about the fakeness and the illusions being blown away.  I always feel like I have to be someone else in order for people to like me.  I have to do something for them, I have to buy them something, etc.  This card is telling me that I don’t need any of that.  I just need to be myself, but I can’t accept that.

Temperance is telling me once again that I need to open my heart.  The heart on the fairy figure is clearly open and the man below is also opening himself up.  Opening my heart is life and love will bring me all that I desire in relationships, but I refuse to accept this.  I continue to look for ways where I can have an amazing relationship without opening my heart, but Temperance is telling me that will not happen.

Alchemy (Temperance)

Alchemy
Dark Goddess Tarot

First Impressions:  I love the Celtic knot work on this card and the fact that Brighid is wearing a Brighid’s cross.  I didn’t realize at first that she was standing in front of a fire and thought she was stirring a pot of creativity.  I guess either option is apt as she is both the goddess of the forge and the goddess of creativity.

Book:  Fire purifies, water restores, powerful and approachable, something new that arises from the union.

Guidance:  Situation is improved by providing skill and attention, different feelings require expression, pull the pain out of your soul, seek balance.

Journaling:

Wow!  As I pulled this card, I found myself facing Brighid.  She was standing behind the flames and beckoning me to step through the forms and to be transformed.  She stands there, welcoming me, beckoning me, calling me; but stepping through the flames of transformation has to be my choice.  I can step through the flames of love or I can choose to stay where I am.  She is telling me that the burning flames of passion will transform me and not destroy me.  I realize that I have been terrified that if I allow myself to fall in love again, I will lose all that I am.  She is telling me that I will change, but will be transformed.

January 13, 2018

This was the third card in a row I pulled that talked about change and growth.  I’m realizing, that I’m tired of the corporate world.  I’m tired of all the games, of the need to play nice, of the need to take bullets for the company.  I’m tired of it all, but I like my salary and I like the freedom.  Part of my problem is that I always lead with my heart.  I put my heart and soul into what I do and it’s hard when that is for a company that doesn’t value what I do.  I’m bone tired and weary.  I also know that part of the reason I stay is for the benefits that I keep in case I need to go to the doctor or need to seek care. It is difficult to consider being an entrepreneur in this country when the cost of healthcare is so high.

Dearest ones,

Please guide me down the path I am meant to be on and help me find a way to feed my soul and have the house and benefits I have now.  Help me and guide me to the people that it is right for me to meet.  Help me to find a way to build a spiritual business while still receiving my paycheck until I am in a position to go solo.

Blessed be,

Raine