Forgiveness is hard for me, I’m a Scorpio and I’d rather draw and quarter someone than forgive them. However, I’ve been along the spiritual block enough times to know that holding on to a grudge or sending angry energy at someone usually just ends up hurting me. My forgiveness efforts usually start out with my rationalizing why someone did something, then talking myself into believing that they had a good reason for hurting me, so it must be okay. My mom had a hard life, she didn’t mean to hurt me, so it’s okay. Although that sounds good on paper, it never ends up working, because then I feel like I’ve sold myself out and feeling worse.
Category: Prayer
Finding My Way Back to Prayer
I quit praying when I became a pagan because when I turned my back on Christianity I turned my back of anything that reminded me of the hours spent listening to a misogynistic minister tell me that all I was capable of was being the woman behind the man. As a young adult in my 20s, I wasn’t sophisticated enough to separate the tools from the rhetoric. I’ve also always been an all or nothing type of person and despite the peace that the Serenity Prayer had always brought me, I wanted nothing to do with anything that was even remotely Christian. Continue reading Finding My Way Back to Prayer
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