Category: Hanson-Roberts

The Moon

The Moon
Hanson Roberts

First Impressions:  I love the woman in the moon who is reclining as if she is on a pillow.  I also like that there are towers instead of pillars or rocks.  I also like that the crab is at the forefront of the card.  For me, this card always speaks to intuition and the darkness.  What I really like about this card is that it makes the darkness welcoming instead of scary.

Book:  Psychic wakening.  Dreams.  The mystery at the center of existence  The realm of enchantment.  Risk.  Confusing dichotomy.

Guidance:  Trust your intuition.  Be brave.

Journaling

I’m taking the moon as a reminder to slowdown and let myself connect with intuition and the moon itself this weekend.  There is always something amazing about standing outside and gazing up at the moon.  When I am open to her energy, I feel her gentle  love flowing through me.  I know I have strong intuition, but sometimes it gets clogged by all the bullshit and worry.

December 22, 2017

It is amazing to read this today as I needed to be reminded to trust my intuition.  There was a shakeup at work and I’ve been a little freaked out by it, but my intuition is telling me to stay and to trust.  It is telling me that it is all going to work out all right for me in the long run.  It’s really hard for me to accept that I should stay because my fight or flight instinct is strong.  However, the message I am receiving so strongly is that I need to stay and that I will be taken care of.

Six of Wands

Six of Rods
Hanson Roberts

Immediate Impressions:  This conquering hero is wearing a laurel wreath as a symbol of victor.  His helmet is gold and one of the rods holds a wreath in celebration.  The sun is shining over the entire scene providing light and energy and seeming to celebrate with the returning hero.  My immediate response to the card is that it is a card of victory, homecoming, and provides a sense of completion.

Book:  Victory and success through one’s own efforts.  Mastery of the self.  Leadership.  Victory but not satisfaction.

Guidance:  Enjoy your victory

Journaling

I’m not sure why I pulled this card today as I don’t feel victorious.  I feel totally beaten down by lie and trapped.  I’m not sure what the victory could be.  Maybe the key is to take myself out of the moment and work to see the bigger picture.

When I do that, I am able to see that overall I have a wonderful life that I truly love.  I’m also choosing to remind myself that none of the drama at work is my drama.  This is all Gateway’s Drama and my job is to stay out of the insanity.

It is also a victory that I understand how detrimental the drama is.

December 22, 2017

More lessons in drama and victory.  I let myself get all swirly this week over work stuff.  There was a reorganization and I’m not thrilled that I have a new boss.  The rational part of me knows that Joe will have more time to spend on building an OCM practice.  I know he believes in and supports OCM, but my initial gut reaction was negative and my mind wandered to the question of whether or not I should look for a new job.  That has always been my go-to reaction in the past when there was a change.  I never stuck around to see if it was going to be positive or negative.  I just left.  And that is what my scaredy cat little self wants to do this go round.   However, I’ve decided that this time I’m not going to run screaming.  I’m going to face my fears and stay and see what happens.

Judgement

Initial Impressions:  The people are naked and although it is supposed to be a family, they all seem very young.  The cloud by the angel is pink.  The people seem to be waving to the angel.  I don’t know if they are just saying hi or if there is more to it than that.  This card is about a reckoning and reawakening.

Book:  Awakening, realization, rebirth, call to change, and decision making.

Guidance:  Listen to your heart

Journaling

Awakening is an odd theme for the day.  I was so exhausted yesterday that I could barely keep my eyes open.  This job is getting more and more physically wearing and I’m not sure how much longer I can continue to push myself like this.  There is a large part of me that wants to get a job in town, but I’m kind of afraid of what that would look like.  I think I need to do some research and see if I could make that work.

December 22, 2017

It’s been over a year since I originally wrote that and I’ve switched jobs, but am still traveling.  I’m feeling somewhat better than I did then and am not as exhausted all the time.  However, I’ve also realized that I really need to pay attention to my physical health and be cognizant of when it is getting to be too much or me and step back.  I don’t always do a great job of that, but it’s a lesson I do need to learn.

Nine of Cups

Initial Impressions:  Interesting card.  I like how it shows the main full face right up in the camera.  I find the peacock feather interesting as that is a symbol of luck and hospitality in eastern cultures.  My initial impressions of this card are of happiness and welcoming.  It also speaks to friendship and collaboration.

Book:  Realization o a dream.  Imaginative and creative life.  Flourishing.

Guidance:  Count your blessings.  Appreciate what you have.

December 22, 2018

Oddly enough, I didn’t journal on this card either.  I must have been uber busy at the time I was pulling these cards.  I like the reminder to count my blessings.  I have been working really hard to focus on the positive lately and not get bogged down in the negative.  Right now, I’m a little pissed off that we have a defect heading into the holidays and we’re expected to work while on PTO to resolve it.  I understand that that is the nature of the beast, but it doesn’t mean that I have to like it.

Ten of Swords (Reversed)

Initial Impressions:  The beads in his hair came loose, but there is no blood.  Are the beads supposed to represent the blood?  Reversed, this card says to me that someones cares are falling away.

Book:  Opportunity arises for liberation and change.  The ultimate battle is with yourself.  Work on the issue and find the courage to rise again.  You will endure and persevere.

Guidance:  Have the courage to love again.  Trust that he loves you.  Be open.

Journaling

Hope is such a good thing and there are days it is in short supply because I get mired in all the details.  For me, this card speaks to cares and worries falling away and about the weirdness being gone.  Reversed this card is about opening up.

December 22, 2017
Interesting as I read this card over a year later, what I see is someone being impaled by the swords versus them falling away.  I’ve quit reading reversals so if I was to read this card today, I would see it as the worst having been done.  The nine of swords is about nightmares and in some ways this card is about the nightmare coming true.  However, the one thing that I have learned in my life is that sometimes it is okay when the other shoe has dropped and you know for sure where you’re at.  For me, it is harder to deal with the uncertainty and the worry than with cold hard facts.  With cold hard facts, you can come up with a plan to actually address what’s going on.

Death (Reversed)

Death
Hanson Roberts

First Impressions:  Kings, women, and children lay before him.  We all succumb to death in the end.  He is clad in armor decorated with skulls showing he cannot be stopped.  The sun is setting in the background showing the sunset of life.  Reversed this card can indicate someone who is stuck and unwilling to move on.

Book:  Strong sense of inertia.  Feeling that nothing has been accomplished.  Stay with it as there is more to learn. Avoidance of or fear of change.

Guidance:  Remove the blockage to transition.  Let go and move on.  Pray and meditate.

Journaling:

Death reversed pretty much sums up where I’m at today.  I’m feeling stuck, helpless, and depressed.  I feel as if I will never move forward and never have the love I want in my life.  I am such a white picket fence girl.  I am all about hearth and home and none of this stuff at work is really important to me.  All I really want to do is come home to someone who loves me.

December 23, 2017

I still really want to have someone in my life who loves me to come home to.  I know the kids love me, but I want that one person who is always there for me.  Despite all that I’ve been through, I still believe in love and happily every after.  However, one thing I have learned in the last year is that work does have meaning for me and I do enjoy it and take a sense of pride in what I do.  I’m also realizing how important it is to have gratitude for what we do have in our lives.  I may want to have someone, but I do appreciate having my kids, a home to live in, and a job that pays me well.  Even though I want love, it doesn’t mean I should trash the things that I do have in my life.

King of Swords

Immediate Response:  Although this card appears cold and icy, it isn’t as the tree still has green on.  I love the purple embellishment on his sword as it takes an object that is cold and icy and humanizes it.  I also like the cloak clasp as it mirrors his standard which you can partially see in the background.  This card as well as my tarot knowledge says that this king is decisive and has the ability to make good decisions, but he might also be a little rigid.

Book:  Intellectual, stern, tendency to be too rigid, guardian of social order.

Guidance:  Be flexible, make decisions, hold boundaries

Journaling:  The last few days have been about flexibility and going with the flow for me so it is interesting that this card came up.  I have been deliberately working on going with the flow and not being rigid so I’m not sure what the guidance is here.  Have I been too flexible?  Maybe this card is suggesting that I be a little more rigid and maintain better boundaries, especially around work.  I’m not exactly sure how I would do that as these people are nuts.  I’m going to have to give this some thought.  Maybe there are ways I can more provide more structure.

December 21, 2017
Interesting to review this a year out of the situation.  All of the things that seemed so important at the time and so urgent aren’t important any more and I don’t even remember what all the drama was at at the time.  I do know that I was working at Gateway in Chicago and they were kind of nuts.  They had chosen the wrong solution and were trying to make it fix and it wasn’t working.  They didn’t do a good job with order and structure.

I’m also learning that overall I don’t do a good job with boundaries and I’m struggling with that now as my client wants to meet every day next week even though I’m on PTO and the rest of the team is.  However, being a consultant means sucking it up and doing what needs to be done.  Not sure how to set boundaries when the expectation is to be available.  Again, I’ll have to figure out how to set those boundaries.

King of Rods

Initial Thoughts:  I love this card because he has dragons on his robe with ruby clasps.  There is a lion in the background and he is wearing a helmet and a crown. This is a king who means business and is not just a figurehead.  From this card I pick up someone who is brave, strong and passionate.

Book:  Honest, conservative, mature, wise, natural ability to be a leader, longs for freedom, decisive, and strong willed.

Guidance:  Be a leader, let go of judgement, claim your worth.

December 21, 2017 Journaling

Oddly enough, I didn’t journal about this card when I pulled it which is totally unusual for me as I usually write at least a page or two about every card.  This is a message that I also need today as I think about the challenges I face both in my personal and professional life.  I need to be brave and plot my own course.  All too often I let other people plot my course for me and don’t take control of my destiny.