This weekend started out great because John had a good doctor’s appointment and was cleared to go back to work, however it turned crappy pretty quick as as something that we thought had been taken care of a long time ago has reared it’s ugly little head and threatened our financial future. We both felt as if we’d taken a big kick to the gut especially because when we called to try to resolve it and get information, we were lied to and told it was all taken care of and there were no issues.
The bad news put a damper on our entire weekend and it was hard to enjoy our good news and the time off because we have no clue how we’re going to resolve this issue. We’ve tried multiple times to resolve it ourselves in the past and apparently have failed, so we’ve pretty much decided it’s time to bring in professionals, but who? I spent most of the weekend online researching firms who might be able to help us and getting more and more confused. It’s Sunday evening and I’m still not sure who we’re going to go with, but the one thing that became more and more clear to me as the weekend wore on was that I could not let this area of my life define who I am as a person. Because I was stressed out and angry over this, I snapped at my daughter and made her feel bad about myself, I didn’t enjoy the time that Sean was home over the weekend, and I sat and moped instead of being productive. I spun these big spider webs of horror about all the things that could go wrong. All of them are legit, but they will only happen if I choose to be a victim and not address this head on.
The other thing I realized that I was doing the one thing that I said I wouldn’t do and that was to focus on the negative instead of all the wonderful things going on in my life. I don’t often take time to sit down and make a list of all the things that are right with my life and that I should be grateful for. So here goes:- We have a roof over our heads, food to eat, a car to get us to work, and the essentials of life. Reading the newspaper and looking around, this is a huge blessing that we all to often take for granted.
- John survived his heart attack and is well on the road to recovery. He got the green light to go back to work on Monday.
- I have two healthy and smart kids who are kind, responsible, and for the most part respectful.
- John and I both have jobs that pay the bills and where we are appreciated and respected for what we bring to the table.
- I have people at work who believe in me, support me, and will go to bat for me. That means a whole lot.
- Not to brag, but I’m intelligent, hard working, and I bring a lot to whatever organization I work for.
- I am a kind person who tries to do her best every day and make people’s lives a little easier. I’m certainly not always perfect and there are a lot of times where I’m thoughtless, but I keep trying to do my best.
I have my health. Although I’m not in perfect health, I’m working on it and getting better every day. Trying is half the battle and eventually I will get in good shape.- I’m loved by my family and friends.
- My incredibly awesome dog Luke who loves me and believes in me no matter what.
So no matter what is going wrong with my life, there is a wonderful bliss in knowing that there are things going right.
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