Ace of Cups

Daily Draw: Ace of Cups

Ace of Cups
Gilded Tarot

First Impressions: I love the phases of the moon above the cup, but I don’t really like the eye looking down. For me that is kind of creepy. This card is about emotional fulfillment.

Book: Infinite supply of love, spiritual gifts, relationship opportunities, peaceful, grateful, feeling enriched, purity of emotions

Guidance: Deepen your capacity for love

Journaling:

The ace of cups is such a hopeful card! It reminds me that to receive love I have to open myself up and be willing to receive. This is why I’ve been doing a lot of work with my solar plexus chakra. I have to be open to receiving love and that’s not something that I’m always comfortable with.. I sometimes avoid showing up in life and that’s unfortunate for me. I still want someone in my life, but I’ve gotten to the point in my life where I need to be comfortable with me. I’m not going to spend my life waiting for something that may never be.

Dearest Ones,
I surrender my feelings to you and I know that you have the perfect person for me. Please help me to be patient and to love the life I have. Also, please help me to truly show up in life and guide me to the opportunities and experiences that are right for me.

Blessed Be,
Raine

It always amazes me how calm and centered I feel after praying and turning things over. It isn’t always easy but a sense of calmness washes over me when I am able to get out of my own way and communicate with the divine.

December 30, 2017

It still amazes me how praying helps me to feel better about anything that is going on. It just brings that intense feeling of peace that lasts throughout the day. I’ve also found that if I pray on a regular basis, I am better able to respond to situations and to think more clearly.

First Impressions: I have mixed feelings about this card. I love the moon phases, but they eye always strikes me as a little creepy. The Ace of Cups is about emotional fulfillment.

Book: Idealism, romance, spiritual love is meant to guide us, drawn along by feelings, do not run, giving or receiving love or blessings.

Guidance: Do not run from your emotions, identify and express your feelings.

Journaling

This is a hard card for me to receive today. I’m feeling mired in feelings of aloneness, shame, and despair. Part of me feels like I should not have spoken out to my mother, but then I am so tired of keeping my silence. I’m tired of being too nice. I could totally relate to Minty (from a book I read) in that I just took it. I kept nodding m y head and acquiescing even when it was something I didn’t want.

I learned from my mother that my thoughts and feelings didn’t matter and that she fucking knew best. Like the goddamned bumper sticker that she scraped off my car that I was paying for. she was so concerned about what people would think so that without even asking she scraped it off my car. And when I called the bitch on it, she gave me some bullshit about not wanting it in her yard. What she was too stupid to get is that she had no right to mess with my belongings and that she could have asked me to move or to just back in. But no, she took matters into her own hands and took it off the car.

That’s what she always did. She never considered my feelings at all. It was all about appearances and what she fucking wanted. It was just like when she planted those stupid flowers in my plant, then had the audacity to be upset when I took them out.

January 25, 2018

Wow! I’ve finally realize why I get so upset with the maids messing with my stuff. It all goes back to the total disrespect my mother has shown me my entire life. She never listens and always thinks she knows best. Even when I told her to leave the dishes, she would do them and then put them in stupid places.

Reading this, it seems I still have a whole lot of anger over how my mother treated me growing up. Well the good news is that I am no longer under her thumb and if I ever let her back in my life, I’m strong enough to tell her to go F* herself if she exhibits that same behavior.

Ace of Cups

Ace of Cups
Gilded Tarot

First Impressions: This card as interesting as it seems to be about intellect and knowledge flowing into the cup instead of emotions. I do love how the phases of the moon are over the cup, tying it to emotions and intuition.

Book: Purity of emotion, spiritual love, meant to guide as in being drawn along by a feeling, do not run from intuition, peaceful, grateful, receiving love and blessings

Guidance: Accept and feel your emotions

Journaling:

I am in a place in my life where I am emotionally fulfilled. I’m accepting and recognizing the love that is all around me and that’s a good thing. I feel as if I am blossoming by surrounding myself by people who are supportive and uplifting instead of gossipy nags.

I never realized how much my upbringing negatively affected me. My mother truly did set the stage for my marriage to John as she trained me to be a subservient nobody and that’s exactly what he wanted in a wife: Someone who would do her bidding and not want a life of her own. My saving grace is that he was incapable of supporting a family so I had to work to support us. If that hadn’t been the case, I might have lost all of me.

December 28, 2017

Sitting here in my house that only has my name on the mortgage, I’m realizing exactly how much I have broken away from my upbringing as I am not the person I was raised to be. My mother raised me to be subservient and to put everyone else first, but somehow I’ve overcome that and become a strong and independent woman.

As I write that phrase, I am so glad for Nephthys showing up in my life. I have to be honest and say I was so afraid when she first showed up as she was the epitome of a virgin woman: strong, independent, and confident. I was terrified of being independent as I’d been raised to believe that a woman was nothing without a man, but I am someone all by myself. Although I’d like someone in my life, I can still be complete and whole onto myself without someone.

Dearest Nephthys,

Thank you so much for showing up all those years ago and taking me under your wing. Thank you for helping me become the strong and independent woman I am today. And I finally know I am independent enough to share my life with someone.

Blessings,

Raine

Hanson-Roberts Recap

Type of Spreads: Daily Draws

Time Frame: September 10, 2016 to October 8, 2016

Overall Rating: 😎😎😎😎😎

Theme: This deck follows the RWS, but gives a fresher perspective. I love the colors on the cards and I love that that the images are closer and more intimate. It feels as if I can really study them and get to know them. I also love the colors on this deck.

Impressions:

I really enjoyed working with this deck. It is a nice size to hold in my hand and I enjoy the artwork. One of the things I learned from playing with this deck is that playing solitaire is a great way to get comfortable working with the cards.

Overall, I feel the cards truly took on my energy and they felt like an old friend when I picked them up. I have to be honest and say that part of me wants to keep working with this deck, but I know that it is good to get familiar with all my decks.

Favorite Cards

Six of Pentacles
Hanson Roberts

My first experience with the six of pentacles was with the DruidCraft deck and that experience left me traumatized as for me that card showed a very poor may being asked to give more than he could afford. However, as I’ve explored other decks and dug deeper into the tarot, I’ve realized that the card is not about giving more than you can afford, but about both giving and receiving with an open heart. As a result, I’ve learned to appreciate the card overall.

What I like about this version of the six of pentacles is that he looks happy to share what he has. He is giving with an open heart instead of giving from a place of gamesmanship or having to give to impress people. I also love that he is measuring what he gives out and I take that to mean that he is only giving what he can afford to give.

Queen of Cups
Hanson Roberts

The Queen of Cups is always one of my favorite cards because in all the decks I have, she carries herself regally, but she is also very approachable. That holds true in this deck as well as she looks like a woman who is enjoying her morning coffee. Her air is a little bit messy and she’s holding the cup with two hands just like someone who really needs her morning caffeine.

She’s also looking deep into the cup as if she’s doing a little bit of scrying while she’s contemplating her coffee. Overall she looks very balanced and sure of herself, but she also looks like someone I wouldn’t mind getting to know ad hang out with.

Justice
Hanson Roberts

Justice is another beautiful woman who looks dedicated and ready to do business, but approachable. She looks as if she is someone who will truly listen to both sides of the story. Our lady justice is also fully engaged and ready to hear with all of her senses. She is not blind to what is before her.

I get the sense that this is someone who will truly listen and find the heart of the matter versus just the cold black and white of the facts. Whatever justice she dispenses will be fair and compassionate.

Queen of Rods
Hanson Roberts

I love all the sun energy in this card. Rods are the cards of fire and some artists go for flame with their interpretations, but Hanson and Roberts went for the energy of the sun and it truly works. The sun elements in this card include the solar cross on her necklace, the sunburst of her thrown, the sunflower she’s holding, the yellow cat, and the lion.

I especially love the juxtopositon of the cat and the lion as that gives us both the fun and friendly feline energy and the fiercer energy of the cat’s larger cousin. Although this is not an Egyptian deck by any stretch of the imagination, this deck makes me think of Sekhemet and Bast with all the solar energy.

Least Favorite Cards

Ace of Cups
Hanson Roberts

This card is beautiful and if I wasn’t hung up on more traditional meanings to be found in the Tarot, I might actually like it. I do love the clouds in the background and the cup kind of just hanging out on top of the water. However, what I don’t like is that the water falling from the sky seems to be missing the cup. I don’t get the sense of water overflowing the cup into the stream like I do in other cards.

When I truly look at this card, it almost seems as if the card is being held aloft by the streams of water like a hot air balloon. It is an interesting interpretation, but overall I really don’t like it.

Eight of Rods
Hanson Roberts

I have to be honest and say that I never really like the eight of rods/wands as it seems to be a boring card. However, there are some versions okay with because you don’t know if the wands are going up or coming down. In this version its pretty apparent they are coming down because in all of the rods, the blossoms have been shown pointing up.

This is just a boring card with very low energy and I truly get no sense of what is supposed to be happening in this card.

High Priestess
Hanson Roberts

I don’t like this card at all because there is too much religious symbolism. She is wearing a cross, she has the moon goddess symbol in her headdress, and the scroll may be Jewish. It is just way too much and overwhelming. I realize that the mixed symbolism also appears on other High Priestess cards, but I don’t like it.

Even though I am not a Christian, what I like about the Christian Church is that they’ve chosen one mythology to follow. They are not trying to be all things to all people like this High Priestess is.

HIerophant
Hanson Roberts

The Hierophant is one of those cards that I usually don’t like, but that there are some decks that have a version I like. This is not one of those decks. I do not like this hierophant as he represents everything I believe is wrong with the Christian church. He looks cruel and the two children are bowing before him. It also looks as if he might be ready to strike them with his stick thingy.

Additionally, he looks totally disengaged. It doesn’t appear as if he is connected at all with heaven or earth. He just appears in his own little world.

Summary

Overall, I really like this deck and it is a deck that I will read with again.

Ace of Cups (Reversed)

Ace of Cups
Hanson-Roberts

First Impressions: I don’t like this card, which is why it was one of my least favorites, it appears that the cup is suspended by the water flowing instead of the water flowing into the cup, then overflowing. Reversed this card says emotional emptiness and sadness to me.

Book: Creativity and deeper feelings elude you, distancing yourself from something that will disturb you emotionally, feelings of spiritual disconnection.

Guidance: Take care of yourself, do the right thing

Journaling

I am feeling empty today as if my life is without meaning. My problem is that I am so emotionally invested in work that I take it personally. None of this is personal. These people are just idiots and don’t know what they are doing. They think they are so smart that they refuse to listen to people who have done this multiple times and too arrogant to accept help. I’m done trying to help them. I will deliver my what I’m supposed to deliver and that’s that. My main goal is to not say anything stupid and get fired.

December 23, 2017

As I reflect on this card, I realize that it is about life force draining out of you and not being replenished. The traditional card has water flowing into and out of the cup and that’s what happens in the natural flow of things when energy flows into and out of our soul. When we get blocked or dis-eased, our energy gets stuck and we feel empty. I’ve learned that I truly need to take time to recharge my batteries or I become empty and cranky.