October 4, 2022
Deck: The Gentle Tarot
First Impressions: I love this image as it looks like the person is throwing the flowers up to see where they will land.
Book: I am open to receiving positive experiences and I am worthy of good fortune.
Guidance: Follow your heart and the universe will provide.
Journaling:
I love this card and the meaning of it. For me it is about opening up and being willing to receive. There are so many days where it feels like I deliberately choose scarcity and close myself off from receiving. However, if I open myself up and let love in. Love will come to me. It may not come in the shape or form that I think it should, but it will come to me.
One of the messages I received the other day is that there is enough good stuff even for the annoying people. I think I was pissed off because M got a promotion. However, then I sat back for a minute and reminded myself that her receiving good stuff doesn’t mean there is nothing good left for me. The world does not work that way. However, we are so conditioned to believe in scarcity that we don’t open ourselves to accept all the good stuff he world has to offer.
Where I’m At: I’m at home today. I actually got an amazing night’s sleep. It felt so good to sleep deeply.
Weather: The weather was beautiful today. It was crisp, but not cold and it was sunny all day long.
Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous 77%
Sunrise / Sunset: 7:25/7:04
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July 5, 2022
Deck: Intuitive Night Goddess Tarot
Card Name: Chance
First Impressions: This card is interesting as she has flames coming out of her crown and she is standing right by the sea. Fire and the ocean are two of the most unpredictable natural events. She also has her hand over an orb
Book: Opportunity, shifting of perspective, gifts, abundance, growth
Guidance: Act through love and kindness during these trials, tribulations, and times of triumph
Journaling:
The message on this card is hard because it is hard to act with love and kindness with all the awfulness in the world. It feels like Trump unleased so much hate and he isn’t willing to put the genie back in the bottle. The messages that the senator from IL got over his willingness to serve on the Jan 6 committee were horrendous. How is someone a traitor for waiting to uncover the truth? I don’t understand there being so much hate in this world. I have always believed that love trumped hate, but there have been a lot of days lately where I don’t believe that anymore.
What I don’t right now is if I should continue to fight and work for a better world or opt out and move somwhere where we can just hang out and go to the grocery store occasionally.
Where I’m At: I’m at home today hanging with the dogs. Clark is sniffing around looking for food on the floor and Wendy is sitting there looking hurt because I refused to let her sit on top of me.
Weather: It wasn’t horrible out today. I went out a couple of times and it was not so ungodly hot that I couldn’t breathe. Unfortunately, I was busy all day so couldn’t take Wendy out to sit in the sun. And she doesn’t like to sit outside when the sun has gone down and it is starting to get chilly.
Moon Phase: Waxing Crescent 34%
Sunrise / Sunset: 5:56 / 9:04
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April 26, 2022
Deck: Tarot of Little Secrets
First Impressions: Turning the wheel, time passing by, the world going on
Book: Fortune, chance, cycles of good luck, alignment, wonderment
Guidance: All events happen at their proper time
Journaling:
I love the saying that all events happen in their proper time. That is such a good reminder for me because I always want to rush things. Knowing that they happen when they are supposed to is a reminder to have patience. It is interesting when I think about people happening at the proper time helps me to realize I don’t need all the answers.
Where: I spent the morning working on my paper, then the kids and I went to the zoo. And I finished and submitted my paper at the end of the day.
Weather: It is chilly out today, but not too horrible, It was warm enough for me to walk around in just my WMU jacket.
Moon Phase: Waning Crescent, 21%
Sunrise / Sunset: 6:26 am / 8:20 pm
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March 21, 2022
Deck: Light Seer’s Tarot
First Impressions: Buffeted by winds of change, balancing, staying focused in a changing world
Book: Fate, destiny, cycling through karmic cycles, surrendering to what is and what will be
Guidance: Know that something wonderful is on the way
Journaling:
One of the lessons that I have learned over the last few years is that I need to stay very focused and grounded in my own life and I cannot worry too much about what is going on in the world around me. When I say, I can’t be happy because of what is going on in the Ukraine, I through myself off balance. I can feel for the people in Ukraine, I can do my part to help, but my being sad does not help them at all. It is the same with what is going on in the United States, I need to do my part and let go. I cannot save the world. I also have to let go of trying to make the world easier for everyone else. I can help people and give guidance, but I need to let people learn to stand on their own two feet.
That is a very heard lesson for me, especially with my kids as I want to help them and do things for them. However, at the end of the day they need to live their own lives and I can only do so much to help them. Sometimes my offering to help is actually hurtful as it keeps them from learning from failures.
Where: I’m at home this week and taking a break from work to do some journaling and am trying to find something to eat for lunch. We may end up ordering tonight because it is going to be a long night.
Weather: It is one of those crisp and cool spring days where you start to feel the possibility of warmth in the air.
Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous, 88 percent
Sunrise / Sunset: 7:28 am / 7:40 pm
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Deck: Tarot of the Divine
Deck: Tarot de St. Croix
First Impressions: What goes up, must come down
Book: Fullness of complexity and life
Guidance: flow with the turning of the wheel
Journaling
As I read this, all I can think of is that this is another version of surrendering. Surrendering and trusting that life will flow as it is meant to flow. That is such a difficult lesson sometimes as I love to control things, but the lesson I have received so many times in so many different ways over the course of the past few months is to just surrender. All I can do is show up and do the work that is on my plate and follow the clues of my life the best that I can. I cannot control all of the outcomes. It’s interesting as I reflect on my life is that this is a lesson that seems to come up again and again and again. All I can do is do the work, I cannot control what happens. I like to control what happens and I want to do my best, but at the end of the day there are so many things that are outside of my control.
I used to buy into the belief that I had total control over my life and that if I put the right energy out there, I would get what I wanted. However, I learned that there is a dark side to that lesson and that if that is the way that life works, then if life does not go my way, I just somehow be at fault. That is demoralizing thinking and all it does is make people want to give up. I believe, just as I believed way back in eighth grade when I wrote a paper on the topic, that life is a combination of destiny and free will. We are presented with certain situations and the decisions we make drive the outcomes of those decisions. To some that might sound like we are in control of our destiny, but we’re not because the situations that come our way are outside of our control. All we can do is control our reactions and our decisions. In some ways that makes makes life a lot harder because it means that I can’t wrap myself in a bubble and control every aspect of my life. All I can do is control my actions. I can control whether or not I get my school work done, but I can’t necessarily control which opportunities come my way as a result of school.
All I can do is do the best I can to move forward and that means accepting that sometimes I will be pushed off into the deep end, but that if I accept, surrender, and do my part, I will come back out into the light, but it might not be where I was expecting to come out.
First Impressions:
Book: Everything on earth moves in cycles, the only promise is change
Guidance: Stay open to the experience even when things turn for the worse, remember that even the wheel of change has a small spot of quiet in the center
Journaling
The reminder to stay centered even when the world is spinning around is incredibly helpful as I often let myself get carried away by the change. I think this card resonates with me today because I am really feeling the change of the seasons as the flowers are wild and crazy, the vegetables are laden down with the heavy fruits of the season, and there is just a hint of chill in the air. This beautiful blue orb we call home orbits around the sun and we orbit with it. There are days when it is warm and beautiful and times when it is dark and cold. This is so clearly a time of transition and I feel it so strongly this year in the world and in my personal life as it feels like life is rotating up.
However, one of the most important lessons I’ve learned from being a citizen on this beautiful planet for over 50 years is that things are always changing and that sometimes all we can control is our reaction. I used to buy into the theory that I was solely responsible for creating my own reality, however, I’ve realized that is just not true and that there is so much that happens that I can control. However, what I can always control is my attitude and how I respond to a situation. I also realize that there are certain circumstances where the appropriate response is to throw oneself on the bed and cry until there are no more tears. However, even in those situations, there will come a time when the appropriate response is to pick myself up, dust myself off, and figure out a way to go on.
First Impressions: Chance
Book: Sun=Mind, we can view things as we like
Guidance: We need to remember that life is a full cycle, if we are centered, we are not at wheel’s mercy, do not neglect responsibilities
Journaling
I usually like the readings in this book, but I do not like this one. I don’t believe it is true that for every event we can view it as a blessing or tragic. Some events are tragic and wrong no matter what. What happened to my daughter was tragic and wrong and there is no blessing there. She may learn from it and blessings may occur because of it, but that does not mean the event was a blessing. Everything is also not a choice. Yes she placed herself in that situation, but his choices led to the situation.
November 20, 2017
I have to step back over my rage on this one and do a reset. I know this card is about the ups and downs in life and there are times in life where life is going good and life is awesome and other times when life sucks. The key is to remember that this too shall pass. If things are going well, it will pass and if things are going poorly it will pass.
October 30, 2018
First Impressions; Changes, endings, and beginnings
Book: Life is full of cycles, events being good or bad based on ow we view them, destiny, life, death and rebirth
Guidance: Be centered and secure, recognize the effect the past has on the present
Journaling
Interesting card considering the exercise I’m planning. I want to go through key touch points in my life and pull a card to give advice to my younger self. I’m a little hesitant, but it’s something I feel called to do. I want to make peace with my past so I can let it go and move on. I feel like I have grown and changed so much and I’m ready to dig in some pieces of my past that are painful. I think the seeds of my present are there and I need to make piece with who I was.
Writing the letters was amazingly powerful. All the cards were dead on. The one I struggled with was eight of pentacles, but I finally realized that it was about focusing on work and not forming attachments. Pretty spot on.
July 1, 2018
The exercise of pulling cards for pieces of my life is still one of the most powerful Tarot exercises I have ever done. To actually look at and address the painful pieces of my life and speak to who I was. Although, I cannot change the past, looking back with compassion and acknowledging my pain was incredibly powerful and was really healing.
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