A Year to Heal

I choose a word of the year every year as a reminder of what I want to accomplish and of who I want to be. Last year my word was love and I made so much progress in learning to love myself and in learning to open my heart to love. What I learned along the way was that loving is hard work and that it isn’t what any of us as little girls are brought up to believe it is. We’re brought up to believe that we’ll meet a handsome prince and he’ll solve all our problems for us. However, we’re not taught about how to choose someone who will be loving, kind, and responsible. We’re taught that looks are all that matters. I spent 22 years trying to love someone who wasn’t capable of loving me back and I’ve spent the past 8 years trying to figure out exactly what love is. The one thing I’ve learned for sure is that love isn’t something that just happens. Love is hard, love is scary, and love is work.

I’ve also realized that love and healing are intertwined and while I’ve made a lot of healing in learning to love, I also have a lot of work to do in healing and growing. That’s why I chose the word HEAL as my word of the year as there are a lot of things I still need to work out. I need to heal my relationship with food, my relationship with myself, my relationship with my body, and my relationships with people who have hurt me in the past. I don’t know exactly what tools or techniques that I’ll use, but I do know it will involve reading and writing as those are things that have helped me in the past. Tarot will probably be involved as the cards have helped me figure things out more than once. I’ll write about general things here and about more tarot related things on Tarot of Change. Feel free as I dive into 2020 and work to heal my life.