First Impressions: Saying f* it and walking away, being fed up
Book: Questing, life dragging us down, weary to the bone, empty vessels drained of our enthusiasm, heart’s yearning for deeper meaning
Guidance: Begin a spiritual quest, take time alone, be more present with your inner life
Journaling
This card just reminded me of where I’m at today as I just want to say F* it and walk away from this stupid project. Nobody is getting along and we’re not getting anything done. I truly due feel as if life is dragging me down and I am weary to the bone. However, the reality of it is that I can choose to take it personally or I can choose to let it roll off my back. I do not have to own any of the drama that is going on. I can just choose to let it all slide off my back. Managing the consultants is not my job, but when I choose to take ownership of it, I am the one that suffers because I get all swirly and I get caught up in the drama. My project manager needs to own the situation and she needs to step up to the plate and kick butt.
I just need to focus on what I need to get done and expend my energy on the things that I am responsible for. That includes capturing all the changes that Gartner created and getting them input into SharePoint and on to the Org Impact Analysis. That is what I am responsible for. I’m not responsible for what the functional team does or does not due. I am only responsible for my own little corner of the world and the sooner I remind myself of that, the better I will feel. I just need to focus on my stuff.
In my personal life, I’m doing a much better job of that and of not getting so caught up and swirly about all the stuff that is going on. I read an amazing book about the Sabbath over the weekend and it put it into context for me. it was a good reminder that the Sabbath is supposed to be a time out of time. It is all about setting aside one day to just be. To just think, pray, enjoy, and be. It is about letting go of work for a period of time and just being. I was actually able to do that this weekend and it felt really good.
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