All right, get your dirty little minds out of the gutter. This is not about being wild and sexy, but it is about finding myself in the bedroom and learning to be true to myself.
When I got separated (2010) and divorced (2011), I was really desperate to find someone and to have love in my life. I’ve since realized that it wasn’t love I was after so much as validation that I was a worthy and worthwhile human being. I also decided that I was going to use every trick in the book to find love and that included feng shui. The feng shui rules include not having pictures of single people, making sure there is room for someone else’s stuff, and having pairs of things instead of singles.
I immediately set out to make sure I made my bedroom the perfect feng shui sanctuary. I found a gorgeous painting of a couple and put it facing my bed so it was the first thing I saw every morning, I made sure there was extra room in my closet and dresser, and I purchased the perfect pair of matching nightstands. And I thought constantly about how someone else would view my bedroom. Would they think it was too weird? Too funky?
And I was miserable! Seeing that gorgeous painting every day reminded me that I was alone. Seeing the empty space reminded me I was a lone. All of it reminded me I was alone and I started to get angry and depressed as I was constantly reminded that I was alone. It also is no fun to constantly think about what other people will think of you and how you decorate your bedroom.
However, my goddesses always take care of me and I found some beautiful art work of strong, amazing, and happy goddesses and women and I took down the couple painting and hung those instead. I hung hearts above my head and created a cool headboard affect with the doors from my grandmother’s pie safe. I started making my bedroom my own safe haven and I started feeling happier and happier. It’s awesome to wake up and be reminded that you are strong and independent.
Do I still want that special someone in my life? yes, but I’m not willing to sacrifice me to get there.
Cairn by Cairn 