First Impressions: Change
Book: Death is the ultimate transformer, sun is foretelling a new beginning, positive change, transformation, renewal, a new life awaits you
Guidance: Feel liberated
Journaling
The death card is a reminder to let go of what is holding me back and embrace change. Interesting card as I reflect on yesterday. I was so scared driving on route 1. I kept being afraid I was going to plunge off the cliff. It was much better driving back when I was on the inside.
I need to take care of myself or the death card will come true. I’m going to start by giving up bread, then soda. I’m hoping if I lose weight and quit sugar my numbers will go down.
I also saw a dead sea lion on the beach this morning and that made me so sad, but thanks to the circle of life I remembered that this is just what happens. We are born, we die
December 30, 2018
I did not do such a good job giving up bread. It did not help that I ended up at a project at King’s Hawaiian and got coupons and free rolls. What I’ve realized is that I have to come to a balanced position with bread. I’m going to make homemade bread one weekend a month and that will be it. I can give up crappy, substandard bread if I get homemade bread once a month. I’ve also mostly given up soda by changing out the ritual. Now the ritual is to go and buy the Bai instead of soda and it is actually working. I think the problem with trying to switch to water is that I missed the ritual aspects of it. I missed the going to the store and searching for it. That made me savor it more. I still have some of that with Bai as they don’t always have my flavor.
I’m also really worried about this thing on my arm. I don’t think it is cancerous because it is pretty symmetrical, but there could still be something there. I will just pray that I am taken care of.
Cairn by Cairn 