Daily Draw: Knight of Swords

First Impressions:  Rushing into battle, defending someone’s honor

Book: Chivalrous tasks, passionate warrior who tries to conquer all that is wrong in the world

Guidance:  Do what you believe is right, be careful not to rush in too quickly, some people are idiots

Journaling

This card an mean so many things.  It can mean rushing into battle without a plan, it can mean leaving doubt behind.  For me it means letting go of fear and moving ahead.  There will always be things and people that pull us back, but sometimes we need to move forward despite these doubts.  We need to test the wisdom of our soul instead of trusting other people.  I’m not always so good at this and often get all wound up about what other people think.  I need to let go of that and live my life for me instead of for others.

December 27, 2018

Interesting reading on this today.  I do spend a lot of time thinking and worrying about what other people think.  I’ve let go of a lot of it and now it is mostly around financial stability.  However, I don’t think that is an all together bad thing.  I think we need to do the right things to stay employed and I think that we need to respect other people. 

Wow!  As I wrote that, I realized there is a huge difference between respecting other people and worrying about what other people think.  Respecting other people is about being mindful of people’s time, about showing up for meetings on time, about being prepared.  Those are things we should do to stay employed and because we should show respect for others.  The flip side of that is agonizing over every little thing we do and say.  If I am working to do the right things and I am respectful, I need to let go of my worry about people assessing the nuances. 

That’s pretty freeing when you think about it.  I’ve also been doing a lot of meditating on the belief that I owe people explanations or answers to their questions and I’m realizing that I don’t.  I don’t need to explain why I am going back to school.  I don’t need to explain why I moved to Cleveland.  I don’t need to explain any of that to anyone.