What part of my shadow makes me feel insecure about relationships?
Maker Six (six of pentacles) is a card about generosity and being able to both give and receive. However, the six of pentacles in the Druid Craft tarot, which was the first deck I ever read with, told a tale of an old man being asked to give more than he was able to. I’ve been working to view the six of pentacles in a more positive light, but it is hard to overcome first impressions. For me the Six of Pentacles tells me that I am afraid of getting into relationships where I will be asked to give too much. I spent 22 years with someone who took all I had to give and demanded more and I am really fearful of getting into that type of relationship again
In my role as Maker Queen, I am very open to the energy of those around me for healing and other purposes. What I’ve found is that if I engage with and try to help people who have less than positive energy it drains me and leaves me feeling depleted. The gift of healing is a tremendous asset, but without proper shielding it can also leave me feeling energetically drained.
The Magician always makes me feel insecure about relationships because I am really good at manifesting stuff, but I have not been able to manifest the loving relationship that I want in my life. It makes me wonder if I am being punished for something I did in a past life or if the person who is right for me is not available, or why I haven’t manifested the relationship I dream of.
Cairn by Cairn 