How does my shadow react when I am untrusting?
The fool jumps off a cliff when I am untrusting as if pushing me to trust, trust, trust. I also find that when I am untrusting, I am put in situations where I have no choice but to trust. That is pretty true for me as I took a new job last year doing organizational change management, but while we are selling OCM, I have to be billable so I have been doing project management work for the last year and that has been incredibly hard for me because I do not have the skills to do all the work myself and I have had to trust my team to do the work for me. Although there have been a few bumps along the way, ultimately the team delivered.
Dancer Four tells me that when I am untrusting, I start to spend too much time looking inward and examining my own soul without liking what I find. When I am untrusting, I start to see everyone else as other instead of seeing our similarities. Dreamer Four also tells me that when I an untrusting, I don’t see the help that is all around me and I reject people.
When I am untrusting of the world at large, I will often find one or two people that I do trust and become obsessive with them. Dancer Prince speaks of this obsession as he peers fearfully from behind the tree and watches the world as if it is a dark and scary place. Being untrusting means that I am coming from a place of fear and I divide the world into “Us and Them.”
All in all, my shadow starts indulging in bad and fearful behavior as a reminder that I need to open my heart once again. I have to be honest and say that I am so flipping sick of hearing that I need to open my heart. It seems that the cards tell me that constantly to the point I just don’t want to hear it anymore.
Cairn by Cairn 