First Impressions: Nightmares
Book: Crossing her arms to protect her heart, troubled by big problems
Guidance: Reach out and get the comfort and wisdom you need, allow someone to guide and comfort you
Journaling:
I need to hear this reading about asking for help. I don’t do such a god job of asking for help. I tend to hold things in and not let other people in. The only time I ever truly let people in was right after my divorce and I was so shattered and broken. The pain was so tremendous that I could not contain it. I spewed because this pain was horrible. However, as I’ve healed, I’ve receded into myself. I’m not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing.
I’m not a recluse and it is not as if I’ve been hiding in a hovel and never venturing out. I go out and I interact, but I’m standoffish and not thrilled about doing the work it takes to know people.
November 25, 2017
I need to make some time for me. I am so caught in in Cam that I’m not taking care of me. I need to step back from her and trust she is in the Goddess’ hand. I need to let go of my need to hold on so tight. If I don’t make time to take care of me, I will end up angry and resentful. I also need to let go and trust.
November 9, 2018
It’s so interesting that this theme of vulnerability has been coming up again and again. I need to start trusting people and letting them in. I think knowing that I can be fierce will help me to be vulnerable and to let people in. This year is going to be all about exploring vulnerability and being more open with other people. I’m really scared about this, but I know it is something that I really need to do.
Cairn by Cairn 