Daily Draw: Queen of Wands (reversed)

First Impressions:  Loss of will

Book:  Someone destructive, limits freedom of others, rules by jealousy and possessiveness, self doubt, squashed enthusiasm, disapproval, loss of hope and self esteem, exhausted

Guidance:  take care of yourself, think before you speak

Journaling

There are a lot of ways to read this card.  The one that most resonates with me is the loss of hope and less of energy.  That’s really where I’m at today.  I feel as if I have truly lost hope.  It doesn’t help that my energy level is really low and I feel like I’m drowning.  I also am sad and feel as if I’ve lost my self confidence.   It feels as if I will never have the happiness that I want.

July 6, 2019

I have learned so much since the day that I wrote that.  I have finally learned that my happiness is my responsibility.  It is my job to choose how I will respond to every situation that comes into my life.  I have learned that I shouldn’t wait for happiness until I have love, until I meet someone, until I lose weight, etc.  I can choose to be happy in the moment.  I can choose to be happy even though the house isn’t spotless and I don’t weight my idea weight.  I can choose to be happy even though work isn’t perfect.  Happiness truly is a choice.

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Raine Shakti

Raine Shakti believes in living her life cairn by cairn and in helping others learn to do the same. Her day job is in the training and communications field and her best professional experiences are when she is able to empower people. She has spent the last few years reclaiming her life and her inner warrior. Part of this journey was becoming an ordained priestess with the Fellowship of Isis. Her Matron deities are Nephthys who has helped her become a true virgin woman, the Morrigan who has taught her what it means to be sovereign, and Yemaya who has taught her the strength in having a loving heart.

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