First Impressions: Burdens falling away
Book: Ending a toxic situation, Contrition, walking away and accepting a minor defeat, work through your emotions
Guidance: Feel your feelings of loss, bury the hatchet
Journaling
I’ve spent some time reflecting on this card and I’m still not sure how to read it. One possible reading is that I am taking responsibility for where I am in life and that means doing the right thing and that I am facing things head on versus running from them. The other potential reading that struck me is that I m ending a toxic situation and that’s true. I’m choosing to move forward and live my life instead of waiting for what might never happen.
May 25, 2018
Interesting that I pulled this card shortly before my 50th birthday when the final ending of the toxic situation came about. Although there is a small part of me that keeps thinking (wishing) that things would /could be different with the bitch, I know that that will never happen. For one thing, I have accepted that she can never be the mother than anyone deserves. I’ve also accepted that all the bullshit she spews is about her and not about me. That’s so important for me to know, because I always tend to blame myself and assume that I did something wrong. However, in this instance, I didn’t do anything wrong. She was, and is, incapable of being a mother and incapable of taking responsibility for her actions.
This situation has been mirrored at work lately with someone who is incapable of taking ownership of anything. I did my best and then some to help him, but he continued to be/act clueless. At the end of the day, there is nothing I can do to help someone like that and he needs to own his actions. That’s hard for me though because I am a compassionate person and because I don’t want to be blamed for things not going well. I guess at the end of the day, I have to take the risk of things not going well because I cannot do it all.
Cairn by Cairn 